my old secrets laid. we can watch the world devoured in its pain.
eh. 2009 bakal bertemu noktah ye?
time sure flies. it felt as if baru semalam je menyambut kedatangan 2009.
macam tulah...
*i can still remember, new year 2009 i terpaksa jaga incek suami & bills the bilis yang ditimpa demam.. haha. see.. still fresh in my mind..*anyway, ready or not, 2010 is coming in 2 days time and i hope it'd be a better year for me and my family. also my career. er.. yang tu susah sket nak cakap. kalau boleh malas nak sentuh pon. nanti kang ada lak ahlil nujum yang pandai-pandai bagi komen kat sini, update status syarikat. haha. ok, change topic now.
sepanjang 2009, there were too many things happened in my life. terlampau banyak tapi tak semua boleh dikongsi bersama. and it was a balance of both suka, riang ria, tergolek dog sampailah menangis, marah, rasa nak lempang semua ada. tapi keadaan suram tu lebih sikit la.. ekonomi yang suram. heh.
resolution wise.. eh macam malas nak bagitau sebab selalunya resolusi gua akan lenyap begitu saja. most of the time tak pernah dapat di fulfill. that's why i seldom state any resolution. maybe dalam hati je cakap nak buat itu, nak buat ini, if dapat dilaksanakan tu alhamdulillah. if tak dapat at least takdelah rasa malu sangat nak face the world. haha.
zaes pulak, each and everyday, he's getting out of hand. cakap makin laju, makin lorat and makin mengada-ngada. kekadang tu tercabar jugak kesabaran gua, tapi sebab dia anak kecil yang sangat jujur dan lurus tingkah, terpaksalah mengalah. ala sebenarnya kekadang sebab too stressed out dengan banyak benda, ada jugak lah sekali sekala terlepas kemarahan kat budak kenit. tapi sekadar marah jelah. takde la sampai nak pukul ke apa. he's my little busuk masam you know. how could i do that? mommey loves you to the max zaes!
*muacks*ada jugak some of my friends yang dah terlampau lama tak dengar berita. apa khabar agaknya dorang? harap-harap masih sihat dan bahagia menjalani kehidupan. ada jugak some of them yang dapat first baby, second baby, 3rd baby.. oh.. which reminds me.. i hope it's not too late for me to wish puan keledek congratulations on her 3rd baby. after 2 lovely girls, alhamdulillah Allah makbulkan doa dia nak timang anak lelaki pulak... nama lil handsome boy tu fadhullah fahad bin mohd faizal. he was born on the 16th of november 2009. my best guy buddy pon, dapat 2nd baby named zarif bin razif. haha.. simple je nama. nama bapak dengan anak tu kat situ je.. pon tak dapat time lagi nak visit both of these 2 handsome young men.. alahai.. kesian dekat i yang sentiasa tak cukup time...
lil fadhlullah fahad...
and.. lil zarif. awww.. i love babies!!!
ok. let's change the topic.
semalam birthday bills the bilis and my bff dbab. lil sis celebrated her 24th birthday with a surprise dinner organised by her
kawan je *ehem* and friends kat chef & brew. big sis here can't attend sebab tu kan dinner bersama kawan-kawan.. so macam tak best je nak ganggu gugat. kang dia rasa macam tak best pulak. heh. oh. her colleagues share duit beli wii fit untuk dia! wah. memang lepas ni takde alasan tak buat yoga lagi. eh. alasan tu untuk i, bukan dia sebab she's not into yoga sangat. she likes futsal better. i pon suka futsal, tapi.. takpe. keep the excuses to yourself wiil ya? eh tengok, tulis will pon wiil.. nampak sangat tak sabar nak cuba wii fit. bahahhah.
last weekend
(xmas weekend) best jugak. thursday, celebrated my cousin's early birthday kat tempat dubai. yelah dubai. kat tarbush restaurant kat sunway pyramid tu. makanan arab, haruslah feel dubai. hahaha. birthday miya masa xmas, tapi sebab takut tak sempat, kita celebrated on the eve of her birthday.
masa xmas tu, lepas solat jumaat, ada tugasan solek menyolek orang nak bertunang. it went well i supposed, despite menggelabah sebab rombongan lelaki dah masuk, tapi kitorang kat atas masih lagi buat final touch up la, betulkan tudung la.. alahai. rasa macam loser sangat sebab tak dapat siapkan awal.
*tula.. lain kali jangan borak panjang masa you sedang menyolek orang tau?* noted. if orang yang bertunang tu reads this, thanks for hiring me. hope you have no regrets watsoever diatas insiden yang telah berlaku. haha. sila salahkan bulu mata palsu.
the tools and drools... haha.. 
orang yang dimekapkan. all these pics were taken using the camera from my mobile. harap maklum. and memang ini jelah yang termampu i snap. gambar before mekap pon i lupa nak snap. cik tunangan orang, i hope you don't mind me posting your pics her. in case you read this laa.. :)on saturday, we
(as in zaes, incek suami & i) went to zoo negara with my cousin, atie and her brood. dah lama terfikir nak bawak zaes tu pergi tengok binatang, at long last, tercapai jugak. ada lots of pics taken but i guess that one story i'll post later la sebab ada banyak benda nak cerita. ok?
eh. tengok.
mula-mula nak cerita macam serious je, tapi dah melalut sampai ke aktiviti last weekend.
i think 2010 is gonna be a(nother) tough year for me. sangat mencabar dari pelbagai segi. takpelah. kita tengok je macam mana nanti ye. i'll try to take a day at a time. hopefully. a day at a time.
dah. rasa macam kena stop kat sini. nanti i post cerita kat zoo negara. sekarang tak boleh sebab gambar-gambar yang di snapped semua tinggal kat imac kat rumah.
meanwhile, selamat menikmati sisa-sisa terakhir 2009. treat them wisely and jangan sampai menyesal lantas meninggalkan remarks yang bakal mencalar rekod anda. bukan apa, in a space between seconds, the future becomes the past. sekelip mata je. as i type this.. eh.. dah jadi past dah? haaaaa..
:)
mysterious sungguh dia ni... ♥
Labels: happy new year, zaes
thorn among the roses.
hajat di hati nak update this blog with exciting story but dek kerana kekangan waktu
(wtf kekangan??) terpaksa la tangguh lagi sebab minda agak sebal nak memulakan dan mengarang ayat.
anyway, di office: business as usual. just completed one ad hoc job yang sangat menguji kesabaran. got another 3 more waiting. with deadlines very close to each other. ah. best sangat..
not!
i'm sure korang sume mesti boring sebab asyik whine pasal kerja, kerja, kerja je kan? dah nak buat macamana? otak dah block all fun activities.
tomorrow is xmas merangkap birthdays of my uncle abang, my cousin miya and my auntie bibah. next 29th, birthday bills the bilis, my uncle om and my bff,
dbab the baby collector.. ahaha.. lama tak dengar cerita
missy d. senyap je. her
blog pon dah bersawang-sawangan. how are you babe?
celebration mood sangat kan this month? tapi kenapa i macam takde mood nak celebrate anything? oh lupa. otak penuh dengan bebanan kerja. duhh!
have a great & joyous weekend dear readers!
peace and out!
what holiday?
ahaaa.. sudah mula malas mengupdate blog.
semua sebab kerja yang deadline nya hampir bisa buat gua migraine for the 3rd time. oh ye. seumur hidup, baru merasa betapa sakitnya migraine sebanyak dua kali. it happened last month, sebelum umur gua mencecah 30 tahun, hari tu. twice in a week's time. memang sakit.
dah la orang lain sibuk mengatur jadual untuk bercuti pulak tu.. uhuhuhuuu.. sangat pathetic.
rasa macam loser sebab takleh nak merehatkan mind gua yang dah sedia stress ni..
cerita memang ada banyak, tapi rasanya memang bila ada time je baru boleh nak post.
oh. this coming xmas, ada job solek menyolek sedang menanti. and this time, bukan mekap untuk sedara mara yeh, but for a friend's friend yang kebetulan adalah my cousin's friend too. never meet her tho. my friend tu recommend kat her friend, so her friend tu pon called me up and blocked the date for her engagement ceremony. ok lah tu. sangat excited ni. hopefully everything goes well. if ada gambar, i'll post 'em up okay?
nanti la. need to rush my ad hoc job. brief semalam, nak printed material in house lusa. ok. i exaggerated a bit there. but lebih kurang camtu la...
this lil cub ni adalah anak jiran sebelah. err.. bukan jiran sebelah cubicle (sila jangan terkejut wahai cpms), tapi jiran sebelah rumah i ye readers sekelian... jaja and her son, fahim. this was taken randomly on his 1st birthday do. yang gebu kat muka fahim tu pipi ye, not some kuih pau. non edible. eh. hi jaja!! :)
upgrading made simple my ass!
incek
haloscan - the comment system i'm using for my blog now - has decided to imposed an annual fee of usd9.95 to their existing members, for some bloody upgrading thingey and left no options for those who wish to retain their free-of-charge account except to export all previous comments and transfer them to other comment system and turn off their service. isk. teruk kan?
am so pissed when i saw the email in my inbox this morning. lepas tu dahla berpeluh2 nak upgrade new blogger template.. last-last.. i'm back to where i'm at. semuanya sebab nak tukar my comment system to blogger's tapi by the end of the day, sebelum my blog template go haywire, i decided to ignore the time line given by incek haloscan. adalah dalam lagi 15 hari. tak tau la what will happen if i don't upgrade. but i've exported my comments. and of course i don't know what to do with them as it was only being exported to a document, bukannya dorang export to blogger's comment system pon... memang la haloscan has been a trusted free comment system for years, tapi they should have a solution/some other options for those who wish to maintain their free account. jangan la bagi option like the above. haih!
*for usd9.95 per year, mm.. that's more or less rm40 per year we're talking about here ok? rm40 to maintain a comment system? they're only comments for god sake.*can anybody help me on this?
Labels: haloscan
hurray it's a jolly good day!
few weeks back, i entered
this contest yang
kak emil buat for her readers. saja la masuk suka suka.. then, few entries after that, she
announced the winners and i was one of them. i quoted a quote for the month of.. ehem.. november. heh. yay! and winners won themselves the calendar from kak emil! double yay!
so, when kak emil dropped a comment saying that she had sent the prizes to my office add and sepatutnya dah dapat like few days after, i had suspected that the prizes mesti sangkut kat my office's p.o box kat kelana jaya's post office. it happened to me once and walaupon parcel tu dah sampai awal, tapi since i used the office add, automatically dorang akan hantar kat kj, straight to the rented p.o box. a little leceh tapi takpe, most importantly, finally the prizes are in my hands!!
so, when the office despatch asked me to collect my parcel from his room, i was pretty excited! and it really paid off when i peeped into the package and saw the calendar and other freebies from kak emil; keychains & the much awaited roll-up pen/brush organisers! triple yay!
ok. ok. meh tengok meh..
it's finally here!
tadaaa!!
rite on kak emil!
and.. this is for you babe!
to kak emil, thanks for the lovely gifts! and to you, you and you; yes YOU! if you'd like to have something like these, you could also get your hands on em, at a very affordable price! like the calendar, it's currently on sale at kak emil's
littleshop at a price of rm12.90. stocks are very limited, so hurry up now! and for any other memorabilia like mugs, keychains, postcards, totebags or anything that you have in mind and wants kak emil to custom made them, please visit kak emil's
blog &
littleshop for more information. yay! suka!!!
Labels: emilayusof
in loving memory of alfy : part 2 :
another one found on the net, in loving memory of alfy.
to
imparfait saint, thanks a lot for telling us your side of
story.it is good to know that he was loved by everyone. and of course, nobody could face the reality that he's left us, but always remember, Allah loves him more. and he's in a better place now.
thanks again babe! =)
Labels: alfy
in loving memory of alfy : part 1 :
i found this short but
sweet remembrance of my dear cousin arwah alfy.
(please click for further reading)thanks
pinku no neko!(the pics were taken without permission from your blog. sorry. terlupa nak tanya masa i tinggalkan comment <-- in case you're reading this la eh..)i spotted him almost immediately. always the one with different pose from the others...
~sigh~
Labels: alfy
according to alfy, my name is mola.
he was only 29 years old and he had left us all.
my dear cousin, mohd alfian bin mohd tahir had passed away at the wee hours of 5th of december 2009 due to
cirrhosis of liver after being warded at selayang hospital for more than a month. he left behind his wife of 4 years, nani, a pair of beautiful children, eiman rayyan & tya orked and his mother, auntie liz. he was the only child of my arwah uncle yet and auntie liz.
alfy & i shared a great childhood moment together back then. in fact, not just me alone, he shared his childhood moment with the rest of his other cousins too, the ones from his late father's side since he doesn't have any other siblings...
owh.. this is soo much harder than i thought. i seem to lost words to keep on writing about him. it is just so hard.. so hard to believe the fact that he's gone. gone too soon. *break down*
when we were young, we used to spent a lot of time together. there's even this whole year where my family lived together with his family due to some issue (too personal for me to reveal). we went to school, mengaji quran, listening to whole collection of the carpenters, learn to ride the bicycle & jogging kat taman tasik titiwangsa and went for short vacation together. he was like a brother i never had.
*his late father was a favourite among us too. he'd showered us with love, gift and food as he was such a big eater! (my mother's side memang suka pesta makanan)*
growing up, we seldom see each other until we were in the university. coincidently we went to the same uni except that he took a different course, mass comm. during my years there, we would bumped into each other kat seksyen 2 or menara or even kompleks pkns. and there were times when he'd fetched me for lucnh or simply hang out together. and there were times where i'd pinjam his car for some course errand of which he'd happily pinjamkan.
he was a cheerful and full-of-happiness person. i can't remember the last time i see him angry or sad or anything. even when his father passed away 3 years ago, he didn't show any sad face. yes, he's sad but only inside his heart.
he was a helpful person too. on my convocation day, he was the first to turned up at my house, early in the morning, to bring us all to the university because we don't have a car at that time. he'd happily snapped some pictures of me with my friends and the family members. and patiently waited for everything to be over. no hantar-pastu-balik-lantak-kaulah-nak-balik-camne-pon situation. later that nite, he came with his family for the kenduri doa selamat. masa i kahwin dulu pon, he was always there to lend a helping hand..
since my mom's side ni semua suka makan, alfy pon tak terkecuali. by looking at his physical pon, one could tell. (when he was young, he was scrawny and well-toned) he'd eat everything, tolak batu dengan kayu je. he always adores my mom's cooking and his favourite was mister mama's sinful moist chocolate cake!
when we went vacationing in langkawi last august, just before ramadhan, and at that time nani was still in confinement, they took the chance to meet us there (since one of nani's relative in penang is getting married) and joined us for lunch and dinner. lepas makan tu siap kidnapped mister mama, ajak tido kat hotel dorang just because dorang nak pegi supper pulak lepas tu...
last hari raya was a lil awkward as his wife's family had planned to celebrate the eid with his wife's brother who resides in the UK, but alfy refused to follow dengan alasan dia fobia nak duduk dalam airplane for more than 2 hours. puas jugak la wife dia pujuk ikut sekali, tapi dia still taknak. so they went ahead, the whole family from his wife's and his mom too. and alfy on the other hand, chose to celebrate the eid here and according to mister mama, he was the first person to turned up at our place on the 1st of syawal. (i wasn't around sebab tahun ni adalah turn berhari raya pertama di kampung incek suami) mister mama cakap, he was jolly, asyik ikut mana je my family nak pegi. bila dorang nak sleep over at one of my uncle's place pon, dia tak kisah nak tido sama. sepatutnya my b-i-l ikut dia pegi redang for cuti saja-saja masa raya tu tapi my b-i-l bailed out last minute and alfy went ahead. alone. dia pegi je. lepas tu dia pegi penang sorang-sorang jugak, and the next thing i knew, his fb page was uploaded with pics of food. food. and more food. very typical alfy.
during his last fb days, his status were always about food and road trips. there was this one time when he was in penang, he'd put up a status asking if anyone needs anything from the pearl of the orient. i responded by saying that i desperately need original laksa from there (and he was thinking that i was pregnant) and 2 days after, he came back straight from penang terus pegi my house with the laksa.
he was admitted to the gleneagles hospital somewhere end of october. masa tu dia demam and his body turned a lil yellowish. and so masa the doctor found out that he might have liver issue, they transferred him to selayang hospital for further check up. the 2nd week tu baru la sempat visit dia kat hospital, itupon sebab mister mama received a call from his wife saying that his liver dah damaged... oh.. i've told you bout that.
masa hari raya haji hari tu, we were on our way back to daerah nur kasih when i received a phone call from mister mama saying that his condition had worsened. so, we went back kejap to b's hometown since we were already half way there and went straight to the hospital after asar. but when we arrived, alfy had already been transferred to the ICU and no visitors were allowed. mister mama & bills the bilis was lucky to have met and talked to him few hours before and according to bills the bilis, alfy looked fine but tired. but the doctors had to induced him into coma just to ease his pain and they said, if he wakes up, he'd wake up.
a week later, while some of the relatives reciting the yassin on friday nite at his house, his wife received a phone call from the hospital, saying that alfy dah nazak and the doctors had to take off all the life support sebab tak nak seksa dia lagi...
and so, that very nite, my sis #1 who attended the yassin recital with his hubby, called me and broke the news. i broke down and called my other relatives (on my dad's side) to informed them.
until now, masih terngiang-ngiang his cheerful laugh and masih ternampak-nampak his smiley face. sepanjang mengenali arwah, i had never came across any tak puas hati moment dengan dia or not even ada perasaan marah pon dengan dia. if dia bergaduh dengan wife dia pon, memang kita takkan tau sebab tak pernah terbayang pon muka marah dia. (bila tak pernah nampak, mesti la kita tak pernah dapat bayangkan macamana muka dia marah, ye tak?) always joking around and always ever helpful. and alhamdulillah.. during his funeral (which took place kat tanah perkuburan lembah keramat, taman permata at 8-ish saturday morning) everything ent smoothly without any glitch. alhamdulillah...
there were too many memories of alfy in me, and i guess i can't fit them in one single entry sebab banyak sangat. tengoklah.. ada masa, bila teringat je, i'll spill 'em out ok? even gambar-gambar pon, we had some photos of childhood moment tapi nak kena carik dulu la.. meanwhile, these are some of the photos of him & family, taken on his 29th birthday, just few days before lil tya orked was born. (b pulak tiba-tiba je nak buat pregnancy shot untuk dorang hari tu.. ~sigh~)
Labels: alfy, eiman rayyan, nani, tya orked
doodle schmoodle.
tinggalkan sekejap misi nak menjadi m.u.a itu...
lagipon gua still takde masa nak snappy snap snap gambar them tools & drools.
nanti ah.
meanwhile, selamat datang disember. juga a month full of celebrations and starting next week, cuti hujung minggu bermula dari hari jumaat for four weeks in a row. syabbas!
and since i'm busy with my office work, lemme just update this blog with these pics. something i discovered last sunday. at the age of 2 years 3 months 10 days old, zaes can now do this...
drawing/scribbling kat atas doodle pro dengan baik.
if i'm not mistaken, i bought this doodle pro earlier this year (ke end of last year?). masa mula-mula dapat, zaes selalu pijak-pijak sampai jadi rosak sket the surface (apart from scribbling rubbish laa..). tapi lepas mister mama, b, uncle jai & auntie miya selalu lukis-lukis pelbagai jenis binatang, gambar, shapes and what not kat atas tu, dia pon macam dah adapt and tried to scribble something meaningful (for him laa..) on it.
lepas lukis benda kat atas tu, he said, "mommey.. ini fish.." then i took the doodle pro and looked at it. does the above look like a fish to you? well.. it looks like one to me. kan. and seriously, it was zaes who drew it. i took out my hp immediately and snapped them. no manipulation in these pics tau.. (masa zaes lukis ni, i was watching the television. i knew dia tengah lukis-lukis tapi tak amik pot sangat nak amik gambar until he showed me the above just after he finished drawing...)
zaes in action. tapi, lepas kena puji, terus dia jadi mengada-ngada and conteng entah apa-apa. konon-konon. tu yang malas nak puji tu...
another milestone for ma petite lil zaes. alhamdulillah...
lil fadhlullah fahad...
and.. lil zarif. awww.. i love babies!!!
the tools and drools... haha.. 
orang yang dimekapkan. all these pics were taken using the camera from my mobile. harap maklum. and memang ini jelah yang termampu i snap. gambar before mekap pon i lupa nak snap. cik tunangan orang, i hope you don't mind me posting your pics her. in case you read this laa.. :)
mysterious sungguh dia ni... ♥
